Friday, April 29, 2011

Hmmph

Exercise is going really well. I feel worried today about pissing off someone at a graduate school I want to get into. I feel exhausted and I can't meet with her today. I hope she isn't mad.

I am up and down lately. I constantly struggle against the chattering monkeys in my head that scream that I am a LOSER. It's constant. My mother used to walk behind me glaring and criticizing me. Everything I did was evidence that I was selfish. It's so painful to remember that. She still screams in my head. Selfish, lazy, rude.

I hope I have lost weight this week.

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